Choices

Although I'm trying to free myself of being in control and what the future holds I also have to make decisions...

I have been in the market to buy a house for a little while now. This is a big deal. As much as I want to live in the moment and let life be what it is, I have to choose. I am torn between two houses so I'm going to blog out my pros and cons, is there really a better way to make a pros and cons list? I think not:

Two Family on Chase:

Pros

-very close (walkable) to my fav places, Northside Tavern, Sidewinders, Melt

-two family - a promise of part of my mortgage always being paid for

-adorable and trendy (is that two)

-great kitchens - the cabinets are great - good space and their are two

-can easily be a single family

-off street parking

-rental property - investment

-three full baths! if I have roomies this is bonus and a half

-hard wood floors on second and third floor

-current owner has yoga books and Buddha's (I know they don't come with the house) but a good vibe!

Cons

-very little yard (practically none - but this could be a pro as I have never mowed before in my life)

-looks like a slight leak from a drain spout

-costs more than the other house I'm looking at

-across the street from a rec center (high foot traffic)

-lower resale value

-my bedroom would be on the third floor - that's three flights of stairs for laundry

-kind of shares a wall with another building - it is the old firehouse now photography studio

Springlawn

Pros

-more of a family feel kind of house

-yard

-one car garage

-4 bed 2 full bath

-small front porch back patio

-cheaper than Chase

-Quite neighborhood

-wouldn't scare my parents to visit (pro or con not sure)

Cons

-anyone besides me would do off street parking

-kitchen cabinets are poop (well just not that pretty)

-carpet on second floor will eventually need replaced but livable now

I really like both houses for different reasons.... what to do????

Journeys

I was reminded during my Yoga Teacher Training a couple of weeks ago that I am not the controller. I was reminded again today when I read a friends blog. As much as we try to control everything around us - well I'll speak for myself, I do this - I know I'm still not in control. I may think ok today I'm going to check xyz off my list at work and then BAM, I get a crazy deadline that has to be done and I stay late to accomplish the goal.

I have been on quite a few journeys lately. I have travelled. So far in 2010 I've been to Puerto Rico, Hawaii and Seattle. These journeys have been more than just vacations. I am continuing to work on me, letting go, moving forward. And just when I think I have it all under control the universe reminds me that I don't, and I forgive more, love more, cry more and take the next step.

During our Bhakti Yoga session we were reminded:
Be more humble than a blade of grass, more tolerant than a tree and respect everyone without expecting any respect in return

So remember, you wouldn't be here today if you hadn't walked the road you have been on. My path, my journey, has led me here. Here is good! I am not the controller.