Perspective

I'm now staying with my friend Martha. We have been friends since 7th grade and are no strangers to living together - we did so throughout college. Yesterday I was sitting on the couch and said "you know - next weekend I will not be married." Knowing that this coming Saturday is now what I call my "not wedding day"
Martha, who is going through a divorce said "I wish next weekend I would no longer be married"
So it's all perspective.

This Crazy Life

Friday we decided to postpone the wedding. I can't believe it. I realized that something I've dreamed and planned for months can be cancelled in a mere two hours. This is probably the most painful thing I've experienced. The wedding has been postponed for reasons that are not my own so I will not share them. My hope is that we get past this moment and it makes us stronger. It's just crazy timing.

Yesterday was my last day with the Girl Scouts and today is my first day at my new job. So far the new job is great. They made me a vegan cake and I had coffee out of a rainbow mug. I will go home and pack for the next week or so. I'm not sure where I'm going as the house is not ready right now. I think I'll stay with friends for a couple weeks.

I'm trying not to let my sadness of cancelling the wedding affect me. Emotion is bubbling inside me but I know that the decision is for the best and I have good things ahead of me!

New Job

I have a lot of new things this year. It is a bit overwhelming but good. In a Whirlwind I applied for a job got an interview, second interview and BAM yesterday I was offered the job.

I will now be the Campaign Manager for Community Shares of Cincinnati. I describe them as the "grassroots United Way". I'm not sure anyone reads this but if you do you can go to www.cintishares.com.

I'm so very excited, I will finish up camp and then go straight to the new job. I'm ready to grow and learn.... expand my horizons!

New House

I have been keeping it a secret.... and I don't think anyone really reads this. Here is my announcement to the world....

I bought a house!

It's 120 years old. Absolutely adorable, and full of work. We'll be working on this house forever! But at least we won't be paying for it forever.

Let it Go!

I think at some point in our life's we all have to let someone or something go. I struggle with this sometimes. I have the tendency to fight for people. I know they are good people. I know they have a good heart. At the same time. As mentioned in an earlier blog, it takes two to make a friendship work. Friendships are work and it takes more than one person to do the work. So I'm taking a deep breath. And I'm letting go. Letting go for me means to let go of expectations. I can no longer expect everyone to live up to the standard I set for them. First, it's unfair, and second, not everyone is as thoughtful as I want them to be. It's not worth it and it ruins my sense of peace.

You know, all of this is also once sided. I think it's interesting, and I know I'm not the only who feels this way. But, I am currently unhappy with a "friend's" actions or lack there of. But she doesn't know. So who is this hurting? It's me. *Deep Cleansing Breathe* Internalizing does not make me productive.

When I can't say it better...

I am posting the link to the veganjoy blogspot. I can't say it better.


http://www.veganjoy.blogspot.com/

God's Followers

Last night, on my night off from camp I went to a lecture. A fundamentalist minister was talking about his diet. The Hallelujah diet, which is a vegan diet. I was intrigued. I do think Veganism is the wave of the future and that i will do what it takes to encourage others to take the road less traveled and stop animal cruelty. So far I use the cruelty and the health route. Never before did I think there would be a "God Route". And so there is.

I have to admit we left the lecture early as it was truly a sales pitch. Pitching to us to buy this guys product. After her preached his view on creationism. He really has one verse that justifies his diet.

Here is what I do agree with:

1. Doctors only have 2 hours or less of nutritional education, they almost always go the way of medication versus lifestyle change.
2. We are the only species who actually cooks their food, even other animal carnivores eat their meat raw... btw we are not supposed to be carnivorous, hence it makes us sick to do this. - I'm not sure I advocate a raw diet but anyway
3. Veganism can heal

As I said I did leave the seminar early - here is this guy's site, I am not endorsing him in anyway shape or form.

http://www.hacres.com