Letting Go

I have been thinking a lot about space and time, the things that we claim "happen to us", and continuing my personal growth. Personal growth has been big for me in the recent year or so. Asking myself, who am I, where am I going, is this how I want to walk through this world?

I feel like sometimes I have mild epiphanies, the other day was about creating space. I have never had a problem creating physical space. I can move over, empty a drawer, or clear something off the the table so someone else can be there, physically. But how am I making space in myself for someone.

Now, I think some of this is coming to me after reading "If the Buddha Dated". But truly, how am I making space inside me to allow others in. Not just a significant other, but people I care about. And am I proud enough of who I truly am to let them see the space within. Or maybe, am I comfortable enough about my journey, deeply rooted in it, that I feel comfortable sharing it with others despite reactions.

Today I think, letting go really means making space for newness. The more I let go the more light I can let in. For me this practice comes from meditation, noticing my thoughts and shifting my perception and my yoga practice.

I also want to share with you the things that make me happy, the things I'm letting in. Today the simple act of figuring out the google calendar and sharing it with someone very important in my life both expanded my knowledge and let her in to see a bit more of me. The perk is I get to see more of her as well.

Now to figure out mobile uploads and things for this blog.

Religion....

Religion has been a huge part of my upbringing. I grew up going to a church called "The Church of the First Born". Was it a cult? I think probably... OK, let's backtrack.

My parents met in college through a church group facilitated by the church mentioned previously. After graduation my dad went to seminary. He became a United Methodist Minister. Said church, mentioned above somehow wooed him back to their church, he left the ministry and went. I was part of this Church ages 5-13. In which time I only listened to Christian Music, watched religious TV, never went trick-or-treating and well thought I would save the world by convincing my friends to be "saved".

My parents had a wake up call and left that church, Dad went back into the ministry and became preacher again and my mom went to seminary. I left the church and never looked back. I went to the baptist church for awhile to oogle over cute boys - nothing to do with religion.

Today I am no fan of organized religion. I am finding my spirituality through my yoga practice, nature and love. I get outraged at the hatred that comes from the "church" against women, against gays, against the teletubbies. When I was going to church I was told that God is a God of love, so where is the love? Jesus fed the homeless, helped prostitutes and most likely had plenty of gay friends.

I just read this blog http://naytinalbert.blogspot.com/2010/06/i-hugged-man-in-his-underwear-and-i-am.html which made me cry. Thinking about it now brings tears to my eyes, it really moved me. What is moving you? Religion, Creed, Spirituality, Buddha, Krishna, God, Goddess, Jesus....

Hate and disrespect is not a part of any religion.

New Name

I felt it was time to rename my blog. I think this is actually the third time. Although my wedding is a huge project that is going on in my life, there is much much more. The previous name limited me.

Living my truth is something I often have self talk about. It's in those moments where people tell me that being vegan is unnatural, or simply say "I wish you weren't vegan, this ___________ (insert whatever animal ridden product they are eating) is so good" In these moments I reflect inwardly before using my voice. Because the truth is my eating habits are mine to own, my choice, it is the choice that is right for me, the environment and all animals.

Living my truth is all of me, who I am. I'm not sure where I heard this, but i remember someone talking about their sexuality. Perhaps asking if he/she was gay. And the answer given was "I'm also gay". I loved this. What am I???
-I'm a red head
-I'm also a lesbian
-I'm also a woman
-I"m also a vegan
-I'm also 5'2"
-I'm also a Pisces
-I'm also a feminist
-I'm also a poet
-I'm also a musician
-I'm also a democrat

There are so many components to who we are, It's important to be all of who you are. Join me in living your truth.